Blessings, upon blessings, upon blessings, being poured into my lap. My heart is full to overflowing. *
The last two days have been remarkable. I am intensely aware of God’s presence, his provision – I am catching small glimpses of the way threads in my life are being woven together to form a larger thing, how that thing is part of something larger yet. I am aware of doors opening and closing, of paths unspooling at my feet and absolutely no sense of fear or anxiety as I step out onto them. I cannot see too far ahead, and I am completely, utterly OK with that. I am living in this moment, contemplating the next, and doing what planning I can, but everything is fluid and growing and moving forward without much help from me, and so I am just riding it, like a wave, like the current. And while I am sometimes very tired, it’s in the same way you are tired after a wonderful day at the beach, emptied out by sun and sand and surf because you’ve just given yourself wholly to the experience.
I am happy. More than that, I am content – deeply, profoundly content. While there are lots of things I’d like to have – for my studio, mostly, and for my husband – I have no real sense of want.
Because… because life’s too short to wish for things we can actually do.
* The title of this post references this scripture passage from Luke 6: “If you give, you will receive. Your gift will return to you in full measure, pressed down, shaken together to make room for more, and running over. Whatever measure you use in giving — large or small — it will be used to measure what is given back to you.” I do not mean in any way to imply that I deserve the blessings that are mine today. I simply could not escape the image of sitting still while wonderful things were literally pouring to my lap – so full that they overflow into the life that is around me. Praise God from whom all blessings flow!